I just realised that it has been exactly a month since my last post and I apologise for the long pause. I have been going through a phase where SL has lost its fascination for me and at this point I am not really sure if I will get it back. I just don’t feel the inspiration anymore to explore, put together outfits or take blog pictures. I log in, clear my messages, look at my inventory and then decide to log off again.
I have heard of many other residents of similar “age” (3 years) that they are going through the same and that this seems to be a common phase where people either take long breaks, leave or come back under a different account. For me it goes even deeper than that. SL has helped me through a very stressful phase in my life in which I often felt very low and, without noticing it at that point, retracted to this virtual world. It gave me an outlet to be creative, to get the kick of exploring new places and virtual art, to enjoy cheap online retail therapy. It provided me with a constant, the virtual home I am sharing with Fi, which always was peaceful and relaxing, and of course I met amazing people and other creative minds there.
Now things in RL have changed. Some stresses have ended, I have learnt to deal better with others. RL was very busy, I had a few health problems but I am now feeling better than I have felt in ages – and it makes me shy away from SL. I’d rather be out in the real world, enjoying the summer and the flowers, getting on top of RL duties and hobbies I neglected. A lot of SL things I used to spend hours doing now seem so unimportant and far away, almost like from a different life. Sometimes it is even a bit hard for me to understand why I spent so much time doing them (searching for the perfect pair of tights, for example). I keep in contact with my SL friends through Plurk and in the end those interactions now matter more to me than having an avatar and a virtual home – funnily enough, many of them do not log in much anymore either and use other social websites to keep in contact.
Maybe I subconsciously feel that coming back to SL might affect me in a negative way. SL can suck you in and time seems to fly much faster, as if two hours in RL equal half an hour in SL. I don’t want to “officially” leave SL, I am still too attached to my avatar for that, plus I am thinking of all the Lindens I invested! LOL. But I will officially go on an extended break. There might be a blog entry, or there might be none, and maybe bad weather in autumn will drive me back to the always sunny virtual world. But when I am honest with myself, maybe I don’t want to get that fascination with SL back after all and rather hold on to RL. We’ll see.
The one thing I feel very sorry about is that this phase coincides with “Operation Squeegee“, which so far managed to raise an incredible amount of L$830.000 (more than $3000) for the National Wildlife Foundation!! Unfortunately I was away for most of it and was hoping to do a long blog post this weekend, but for various reasons only managed this attempt to take up Ariel Wingtip’s Operation Squeegee Blogger challenge. The original challenge includes the squeegee, but I fell in love with the fish and decided to use it instead. 😀 You can get the free antlers in a box near the stage and a squeegee pack from the donation bucket at the Operation Squeegee Headquarters (SLURL). Operation Squeegee runs until 15th July and has a ton of events, which can be found on the website. There are sooo many awesome things for sale – cute T-Shirts with marine animals, deco items, a houseboat, poses, cute trees with eyes, quirky transportation vehicles…Please go and have a look and support the help efforts for the wildlife affected by the oil spill. Maybe we will manage to break the one million mark!
Operation Squeegee Donation items [SLURL]:
Squeegeed Antlers by Fire Good!!!
Scuba Set by SYSY & Hopscotch.
Huggles Fish with pose by Hopscotch.
Hair “Ana Lu” by Truth.
Skin “Belle Pale” by Belleza.
Picture taken at Suboceana [SLURL].